Catching Up

So it’s been an okay month.

I’ve gotten back into a streaming schedule. I have only 3 scheduled but I as a rule end up having more. I like the flexibility of being able to pop in as time allows without having to potentially adjust or cancel. I will likely add a day to the schedule and perhaps adjust start time. I’ll keep you posted on that. As always Twitch is where to find me.

I’ve been working on new designs..

These are all currently available in my KalamityRaine redbubble. The Appalachia Awaits is a limited time design, so grab it on whatever you need it on before it’s gone.

I will be reopening the redbubble hub and it will have all of the availabile designs from the individual shops so you can one stop shop. And if you prefer to browse by genre, the individual shops remain open. It offers quick or relaxed browsing options. And of course new designs (some limited time) are coming to all.

I will am designing new pieces for the Etsy shops. Full production won’t start until I’ve finished off the construction of the last shelves (for now) in the living area. That being said, I am bringing new creations shortly.

It’s difficult juggling everyone and everything but I’m working with what delights me in hopes it will bring the same to someone else. Insomnia, depression & injuries are always accompanying but it’s good to have faithful companions.

I hope this finds you in good humour and abundance of joy.

au revoir

xo

I

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Am I really writing this?

This is a hard post to write. I’ve been sick and absolutely exhausted for a week now & it seems like vertigo is kicking in because of the ear and it sucks.

I’m not sure if I can put it into words properly but im going to try.

I follow the people I do on social media because I adore them and what they do. I wish for good things for good people.

I’m finding myself overwhelmed by just not feeling good enough. I’ve blogged, vlogged, streamed, created & designed (admittedly this past year and a half has been sparse). I’ve started to wonder just what I’ve not got that everyone else seems to have.

I post and someone else does similar after and they get the sales, the likes, the respect, the follows or whatever it happens to be. I tell myself “we’re all at different stages”, I do the pep talk and keep going….it happens again. I’m really starting to feel completely useless. I felt this way even when I was being consistent in getting things done but now it’s just suffocating.

I know a lot of it is being brought on from the changes that started happening in February of 2017. The people who blindsided me (who had done it in some ways before) really took huge pieces of me in every way this last time. I know they don’t deserve the power or the attention. I can’t shake the inadequacies they stirred up and it’s eating me alive.

I want to be the creative, producing, fun loving quirky gal I used to be. I think she might be gone and all the shiny things don’t seem to be helping get her attention.

I don’t want to be dancing with this weight of depression and inadequacies with doubts rasing through my head. I don’t want to not be inspired by all the amazingly creative and beautiful people and things in the world.

I want to be valued and appreciated for what I do. To be able to live from it and have savings and able to pay my own way. To love life again and be proud of myself and the things I do.

I don’t think it’s too much to ask.

Sorry for dropping my innards out here. I’m grateful for the support and love I do get. And please know how much it means to me when you just lurk in the livestream or when you’re able to purchase a tee or sticker that I created. It’s nowhere enough for me to be able to live off of yet or even pay a bill but I appreciate it all and I really am trying to keep it all going and more.

au revoir

xo

I

End of May Updates

What a month! I can’t believe it’s been just over a year since we started the build. So much has happened and there’s still so much yet to do.

I found myself alternating personally this month between great highs and lows. I am so beyond happy about the life I’ve begun to create for myself but the cost of it in every way has been shocking. It’s hard having to pay up without steady income coming in. Some of that is on me with the lack of regular things happening and I am working on that, but depression kicks your feet out at the most inopportune times.

In terms of business stuff I’m super freaking proud of the new designs (and all designs) in my redbubble shops! I really feel beyond excited of all I’ve come up with. Not so many sales so far but I’m hoping as I keep adding new designs that will sort out. If you’re interested in my designs and available products just click here for MagpieMuddles, gmeraine & parapopulous. And don’t forget to tag me on Instagram with your purchases, cause I love to see my creations in their new homes.

The livestream for gmeraine is coming back. I’m terrified to start doing it again. I adore my rainestorm and I do miss you all, my nerves are winning right now and I’m sorry for that. I want you to know I’m trying. Sadly the parapopulous blogs and podcast are in a similar place.

Ive managed to film a bunch of stuff for the IRL rainecaster channel. It all needs to be edited and custom intros done for them. I still have a huge Makeup Revolution to swatch and film as well as an indie brand I’ve fallen in love with.

I’ve taken some amazing photos and have gotten a new tripod to assist in some of the shots. If you haven’t seen the current available photographs go visit my photography only shop. I have so many more waiting on my hard drive to list and share with you.

I want you to know how much all your support means to me and even more so over this past year. Thank you really doesn’t cover it.

au revoir

xo

I

Holy Haul! 

Veering into the very behind the scenes on this blog post. So courtesy of a friend, I got to go on what I consider to be quite the haul on Monday.   

 
 It was quite the adventure and I was like a fish out of water, high end brands are stuff I see in magazines but not in my closet LOL. Nothing against them but $50 jeans make my heart pound and me sweat. I was definitely in my element as the adventure started with our stop at a Value Village where I picked up a huge bag of goodness for $25!!!  And yes that is a knockoff Dior bag that I’ll put up for grabs once I’ve tried it out a time or two for spring.

 
From there it was on to the surprise shopping location aka Toronto Premium Outlets. Where I, as a far girl, figured I’d get purses and some jewellery but did far better. (FYI, I’m a size 14-16 and there are no plus size speciality shops currently here.) I got lucky at La Vie En Rose with 4 new bras (two of them under $20) and a buy one get one 50%! And though they aren’t exactly what I’d been looking for, they fit and followed me home along with a fluffy mini poncho.  

 
So I need jeans. I hate shopping. I have a hard time finding jeans, or clothes in general. I was going to walk by Lucky Brand and I have no words for how glad I am my friend said go see because the two best fitting pair of jeans EVER followed me out. It’s actually one pair in 2 fabric weights and colours but holy wow! They fit amazing and were buy one get one half price and the shopgirls were amazing!  

 
We were in and out of almost every shop, though I stayed clear of the Body Shop and the Second Cup LOL.  I also got to touch my first Burberry and Kate Spade bags really wanted me to bring them home! I did find a bag at Bentley on for 70% off so yay!!  

 
And almost as shocking as the high end shopping was the addition to my 2 pairs of shorts with these I found at Walmart. And of course more candles, because candles and coffee are life.  

 
So that’s my adventure / haul. I did a vlog of it on my rainecaster YouTube that you can watch here

au revoir

xo

I

P.S. I’m working on links and updates so look forward to another blog post very soon with info on the streams, shops & casts.