Catching Up

So it’s been an okay month.

I’ve gotten back into a streaming schedule. I have only 3 scheduled but I as a rule end up having more. I like the flexibility of being able to pop in as time allows without having to potentially adjust or cancel. I will likely add a day to the schedule and perhaps adjust start time. I’ll keep you posted on that. As always Twitch is where to find me.

I’ve been working on new designs..

These are all currently available in my KalamityRaine redbubble. The Appalachia Awaits is a limited time design, so grab it on whatever you need it on before it’s gone.

I will be reopening the redbubble hub and it will have all of the availabile designs from the individual shops so you can one stop shop. And if you prefer to browse by genre, the individual shops remain open. It offers quick or relaxed browsing options. And of course new designs (some limited time) are coming to all.

I will am designing new pieces for the Etsy shops. Full production won’t start until I’ve finished off the construction of the last shelves (for now) in the living area. That being said, I am bringing new creations shortly.

It’s difficult juggling everyone and everything but I’m working with what delights me in hopes it will bring the same to someone else. Insomnia, depression & injuries are always accompanying but it’s good to have faithful companions.

I hope this finds you in good humour and abundance of joy.

au revoir

xo

I

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Am I really writing this?

This is a hard post to write. I’ve been sick and absolutely exhausted for a week now & it seems like vertigo is kicking in because of the ear and it sucks.

I’m not sure if I can put it into words properly but im going to try.

I follow the people I do on social media because I adore them and what they do. I wish for good things for good people.

I’m finding myself overwhelmed by just not feeling good enough. I’ve blogged, vlogged, streamed, created & designed (admittedly this past year and a half has been sparse). I’ve started to wonder just what I’ve not got that everyone else seems to have.

I post and someone else does similar after and they get the sales, the likes, the respect, the follows or whatever it happens to be. I tell myself “we’re all at different stages”, I do the pep talk and keep going….it happens again. I’m really starting to feel completely useless. I felt this way even when I was being consistent in getting things done but now it’s just suffocating.

I know a lot of it is being brought on from the changes that started happening in February of 2017. The people who blindsided me (who had done it in some ways before) really took huge pieces of me in every way this last time. I know they don’t deserve the power or the attention. I can’t shake the inadequacies they stirred up and it’s eating me alive.

I want to be the creative, producing, fun loving quirky gal I used to be. I think she might be gone and all the shiny things don’t seem to be helping get her attention.

I don’t want to be dancing with this weight of depression and inadequacies with doubts rasing through my head. I don’t want to not be inspired by all the amazingly creative and beautiful people and things in the world.

I want to be valued and appreciated for what I do. To be able to live from it and have savings and able to pay my own way. To love life again and be proud of myself and the things I do.

I don’t think it’s too much to ask.

Sorry for dropping my innards out here. I’m grateful for the support and love I do get. And please know how much it means to me when you just lurk in the livestream or when you’re able to purchase a tee or sticker that I created. It’s nowhere enough for me to be able to live off of yet or even pay a bill but I appreciate it all and I really am trying to keep it all going and more.

au revoir

xo

I

So you like Spreadshirt…

Because I know sometimes we just like to shop in certain places, I’ve opened a Spreadshirt shop … 15% off with coupon code: welcome-100220889 at HTTPS://shop.spreadshirt.com/RaineOfIris . 

The Redbubble shop remains open and a Design by Humans shop will open soon because I know choices are good and each one has its own special items. Otherwise look forward to a blog post here and vlog on rainecaster (as well as the parapopulous podcast) heading your way soon.

au revoir

xo

I

Hi

How’ve you all been? 

It’s been just ridiculously busy for me. Not surprisingly so you might say but this past few weeks have been much more so. 

I’ve been playing in the mornings as well for 2 hours. It’s not been daily but it’s been almost so. I’d like to keep it in some form or possibly switching a stream or two to the brunching hours, but I’m not sure what the end result will be. I’ve been having weird issues with only certain games not exporting over and it’s been almost a week of trying! I don’t want to have to start recording while I stream, as I don’t think my processor and memory will be enough so if it continues a venue switch may have to happen. I’ll of course keep you posted but it’s business as usual for the Klutzy Gamer Twitch and YouTube. And let’s not forget my weekly streams on Great Geekwads too! 

So beyond the usual gaming routine it’s been a busy couple weeks for behind the scenes stuff like taxes and spring outdoor work. I’m filming and have two videos ready to go up for you on the RaineCaster YouTube. They’re being edited as I learn how to insert and it’s a slow thing since it’s only me working on everything, but I promise they’ll be up sooner than later. 

In all this Parapopulous has been gaining fans! And I’m excitedly seeing it and my Klutzy Gamer growing. I know the shops will as well once the items I’ve been attempting to work on amidst all this get up and the shops get a bit of a tweak. This must begin to feel like lip service but I have been working away at things for them, though admittedly not nearly as fast as I’d want to.

It’s hard to think about much else with all this going on but my family and in particular my dad have been taking a lot of my attention. This will be his last week of chemo and radiation and he is starting to really feel the effects of it. After Monday he’ll have a wait of a few weeks and then surgery at the start of June. It’s perhaps a front he’s giving us all but he’s doing well, all things considered. Though I, and much more so he I’m sure, can’t wait for things to get back to normal. Or as normal as they get for me LOL. 

So lovelies, I’m off to attempt another try of seeing if those two nights will export over, fingers crossed they join all the others that have managed to export with no issues and work on getting one video up on RainCaster. Don’t forget there’ll be a new Parapopolous blog out tomorrow too and as always a livestream tonight! 

au revoir

xo

I

P.S. Don’t forget there’s a Facebook page for all my projects as well and give ’em a like if you happen to drop in. You can find them through the Raine of Iris hub or the links here. And “May the fourth be with you”!