The hopefully I remember it all post.

So I’ve been wanting to catch you up. It’s been a while and there’s still so much to do. The short version is, it’s been a hell of a year. The long version, well that’s the stuff of stories.

This has been a year of chaos and change, they go hand and hand if you didn’t know. I’m still trying to get my bearings, still trying to catch up, still trying to get momentum back. In the spirit of the new year or the really extra moon that’s happening, let’s catch up.

Huge thing is I have relocated. I spent from April of last year to August working on helping gutting and building a wee apartment out of a section of my parents house. It took a lot out of me in every way and the main reason being the deal I made with my sons father to share a house that finally went sour. He bought me out of a portion of my share of the house and I had no choice but to move, and seeing that my parents are older and have had some health issues, this seemed like the best plan. This also leads to a final and permanent separation since last year and divorce at some point this year. It’s sad to lose someone I’ve known for years but we began living separate lives a very long time ago and it’s well past time for us to officially go our separate ways. It caused so much stress and frustrations for us all and it’s taking some time to adjust and destress from it.

That is the root cause of why all my projects went missing after about April of 2017. I’d been dealing with some depression from that situation and some external friendships that had gone toxic before this and all lumped together, threw me for a loop. I haven’t really wanted to speak about it to anyone because we all know the shame game that goes on. I was so lucky to have a best friend who dropped everything to come up and help out with the build and the move and me from June until almost November. And I’ve been lucky to have supporting family if I’d just go ask for it. I also have a freakishly good son (insert the Gilmore Girls music here) who is the Rory to my Lorelai and I’m happy to say he came along on the adventure of all this change and can still be found just across the hall… new hall same people I guess hahahaha. it’s still a work in progress but all recovery is.

We’ve had some more health issues and scares including my son who at 19 got chicken pox just before Christmas and did not do well with it, having a fever at max that reached 106.5 F and had a steady around 104 F for almost a week. My dad has some more cancer stuff to deal with, but it seems like this one will be a simple and easy process thankfully. Happily these are the worst of things and they’re really not so bad seeing all we’ve been through. I’m adapting to some effects from the fall I had in June that hasn’t healed the right way but I’m hopeful it won’t affect the hands on creation of pieces I’m looking to add on and return to at some point this year.

I have had some good things in the Design by Humans shops and a sale of 2 items from redbubble as well as finally setting up a Fine Art America account to start profiting from my love of photography. I’m also learning how to use a graphics tablet and have a watercolour-ish design almost ready to release. My postcard painting I did for TAE18 is seen on much of their info! And of course there’s been new things up on my rainecaster and archives up on my gmeraine YouTube channels. I do plan on gaming and livestreaming again, I’ve been hesitant to do it because I haven’t had the right energy to do it properly as you all deserve. I miss it and look forward to dipping my toes in it this February. I’m looking at January as the free trial month, with great hopes and plans for the remainder of this year and beyond.

I’ve taken great strength from some different places…more specifically in the shows I’ve been watching: Grace and Frankie, Total Divas, Dragula, Ru Paul’s Drag Race, the Crown, The Joy of Painting with Bob Ross, Gilmore Girls (yes still) and the Walking Dead. I’ve found inspiration to fight, be strong and be happy being myself from all of them.

I do plan on sharing some of the process in photos in a separate post of the renovating. It’s still got some more to go, so don’t worry that you’ve missed it all. And of course that’s another time eater there but I do plan on picking up on everything including the podcasts on Parapopulous beginning in February.

You’ll forgive me for this very personal post I hope and thanks beyond words for hanging out and supporting me in all of this past non few months, it has meant the world to me.

au revoir

xo

i

I promise this will be a sooner than later return!

P.S. There are individual shops for Parapopulous, gmeraine and raine of iris on both redbubble and Design by Humans and the links for those are in the sidebar.

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Work in Progress


So my dad has brought a new hard drive and the work begins. It’ll be a while yet before even half of my data will be back but if the brain works, it’s worth it. I’ll keep you posted. 

Update: As of Sunday afternoon I’m no further ahead. My dads attempt at things is not going as planned. 

au revoir

xo

I

Hi

How’ve you all been? 

It’s been just ridiculously busy for me. Not surprisingly so you might say but this past few weeks have been much more so. 

I’ve been playing in the mornings as well for 2 hours. It’s not been daily but it’s been almost so. I’d like to keep it in some form or possibly switching a stream or two to the brunching hours, but I’m not sure what the end result will be. I’ve been having weird issues with only certain games not exporting over and it’s been almost a week of trying! I don’t want to have to start recording while I stream, as I don’t think my processor and memory will be enough so if it continues a venue switch may have to happen. I’ll of course keep you posted but it’s business as usual for the Klutzy Gamer Twitch and YouTube. And let’s not forget my weekly streams on Great Geekwads too! 

So beyond the usual gaming routine it’s been a busy couple weeks for behind the scenes stuff like taxes and spring outdoor work. I’m filming and have two videos ready to go up for you on the RaineCaster YouTube. They’re being edited as I learn how to insert and it’s a slow thing since it’s only me working on everything, but I promise they’ll be up sooner than later. 

In all this Parapopulous has been gaining fans! And I’m excitedly seeing it and my Klutzy Gamer growing. I know the shops will as well once the items I’ve been attempting to work on amidst all this get up and the shops get a bit of a tweak. This must begin to feel like lip service but I have been working away at things for them, though admittedly not nearly as fast as I’d want to.

It’s hard to think about much else with all this going on but my family and in particular my dad have been taking a lot of my attention. This will be his last week of chemo and radiation and he is starting to really feel the effects of it. After Monday he’ll have a wait of a few weeks and then surgery at the start of June. It’s perhaps a front he’s giving us all but he’s doing well, all things considered. Though I, and much more so he I’m sure, can’t wait for things to get back to normal. Or as normal as they get for me LOL. 

So lovelies, I’m off to attempt another try of seeing if those two nights will export over, fingers crossed they join all the others that have managed to export with no issues and work on getting one video up on RainCaster. Don’t forget there’ll be a new Parapopolous blog out tomorrow too and as always a livestream tonight! 

au revoir

xo

I

P.S. Don’t forget there’s a Facebook page for all my projects as well and give ’em a like if you happen to drop in. You can find them through the Raine of Iris hub or the links here. And “May the fourth be with you”! 

Another day…

Another change. Another challenge.

So welcome y’all. I’ve decided to not further RainebowsEnd. It’s something that I think will happen eventually but I think I rushed into it and with the potential challenges on the way, I’m better off letting go of it. That being said, I did take on a YouNow for a different way to be able to interact with y’all. Yes it’s called rainecaster but its about all of my projects and everyday life. I did start a Twitter for it so people who just want to know me there can but it’s also a good thing so the notices when I go live have a place to go. I’m also going to be working on the shops this coming week. I’ve go no idea honestly where it’ll go but I want to tidy and attend to a few things.

So I’m sure you noticed the potential challenges I mentioned. I want to let those of you know who aren’t following me on Snapchat (loreleybee) or know my family, what’s going on so you can understand any delays or changes that might be happening. I do promise to keep these to a minimum but, I can’t predict right now. We found out this week that my dad has cancer again. It’s esophageal cancer this time and we won’t know until mid week how bad it is. I’m of course going to have to shift some energy and focus to that. I’ll take any good energies you want to send but I don’t want you to worry. It’s not something I wanted to share but because it will likely have some impact on my work, I felt I owed it to you.

In the meantime, Hedgey has lent me his Xbox 360 so I can throwback again. It’s great fun and my lens isn’t reading disks poperly or at all any more so I’m thrilled to have this option until I can fix mine. I’m quite delighted with the donation of funds so I could get and share Black Ops 3 with you guys too! I’m tardy to the party on it but that’s how I first got into the series so I feel good with it. I haven’t touched story yet, which is unusual for me, but I do promise to share it with you when I do. And speaking of excited…the beginnings of the DLC for Fallout 4 were announced!!! (No, I still haven’t finished the main story once LOL). If you all are curious I livestream 6 nights a week usually on Twitch and archive with other exclusives & sometime livestream to YouTube. Lurkers and chatters are equally welcome, I just ask you follow / subscribe so I know you’re liking the stream.

I haven’t forgotten about Parapopulous I promise. I’m just sorting and planning. I’ll get a new schedule up and running and of course keep you in the loop on everything here or on the Facebooks or Twitters. Right now, I have to run and start prepping for dinner tonight. Thank you all for your support!

au revoir

xo

I

p.s. I just got the app for my laptop before I posted this, so forgive any spelling or other errors as I get used to it.